WOODS OF YPRES - Pursuit Of The Sun & Allure Of The Earth
Intro: The Looming Of Dust In The Dark (& The Illumination)
Sunlight shines
On the clothes that lay on a chair
A desk covered in clutter
The floor covered in hair
It shines on a figure, so thin and frail
It shines on his skin, so sick and pale
It shines on the wall, where for so long
I have stared
Breaking the spell of authentic despair
As my eyes come into focus
I turn to face to face the room
The movement from the sheets creates a breeze
Sweeps the dust from its place
It so quietly swarms
And hangs in the air
It shines in the light
And makes me aware
Death is looming in here
And it’s getting to you
Under dust, over time
It has been burying you
It now stirs up the room
As it enters my sight
Rising up from the dark
From the surface it lies
As if hinting to me
To choose day over night
To leave all of this dark
And seek the warmth of the light
Outside this room where my life wastes away
Her priorities lie
In collecting corks from bottles she plans to make into things
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The Will To Give
I had built up all of my hopes and all of my plans
Only to have them stand and cast shadows of humiliation
Days would pass shadows would remain
A reminder of all of my dreams
I had to live humbled with
The disappointment of what never came to be
I vow from this day forward
My grieving will be brief
That I will continue to give to this world
Knowing I may never receive
I had come so far
Before being stripped and sent back to the start
It felt as though the air was tearing me apart
A hybrid of seasons had come
It swept across the land
It spared the lives of everyone else
While it destroyed everything I had done
The frost came in the night
My progress immortalized
All that I had left undone
Would be forever, frozen in time
I became known for this curse
It happened throughout my life
It needed to continue to occur
In order to keep my legacy alive
Before I know my time had arrived
It was already gone
Cursing the cold winds of change
My moment of peace was just the eye of the storm
The will to live is easy
You can exist without a care
The will to die shows it meant so much
That you couldn’t have it - and you couldn’t go on living without it
The will to give makes the best of nothing
It is a philosophy
That states you will continue to give to this world
Knowing you may never receive.
Satisfaction will come and in time it will leave us unsatisfied
As uncertainty returns
Bringing back the excitement to our lives
We can only enjoy so much stimulation
Before we stop responding and become despondent again.
I had built up all of my hopes and all of my plans
Only to have them stand and cast shadows of humiliation
Days would pass shadows would remain
A reminder of all of my dreams
I had to live humbled with
The disappointment of what never came to be
Those shadows still remain as landmarks of failed attempts
In their shade I work away at building a tower of character
One day it will be revealed and it will stand for man years
Casting a shadow of its own and striking fear in hearts - as will I
It is the discomfort that sets us apart
That wakes us up, that puts us to sleep
It is our pathetic moments
Which make us desire to be great
It is the starving itself
That makes us hungry to want more
Over time as you learn to fall
You’ll rise to your feet faster than the time before
Satisfaction is a peak on the verge of decline
It will be over in the blink of an eye
Take your time to feel every moment
A gradual climb will let you enjoy it
For your life is measured
By the degree of dynamic from your life to your death
The wait is long and the wait goes on
But it is better to travel hopefully than to arrive
Through the crests and troughs
I will have seen both sides
By the Pursuit of the Sun and the Allure of the Earth
I will have earned and spent my life
The will to give
There is no destination
There is only the journey
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The Sun Was In My Eyes: Part One
The sun was in my eyes
It blackened my sight
I was high with conviction
That I was invincible
The sun was in my eyes
I was stricken blind
I believed I could see through the dark
As I followed the un-guiding light
Pursuing the sun
While causes of mine are still alive
But barely carry on
Pursuing the sun
While friends lay in beds
Recovering from their recklessness
Give in to all the temptation
Give up on all your beliefs
Forget the feeling of the changing of seasons
Wishing that summer would go on forever
How long before it would get old
Would you miss looking forward to when it starts to get cold
The sun was in my eyes
It came through the trees
Consumed all of my mind
It was all I could see
The sun was in my eyes
Something became of my life
I left all else behind
And starred into the light
The sun was in my eyes
Putting it off for a rainy day
When it pours I’ll stay indoors
To try to make things right
The sun was in my eyes
Thin ice on a summer’s day
As I procrastinate
It falls apart and melts away
Pursuing the sun
While causes of mine are still alive
But barely carry on
Pursuing the sun
While friends lay in beds
Recovering from their recklessness
Going after the pleasures of summer
Betray the comforts of our dark little space
Believe their healing will cure all your trauma
Becoming the person you’ve claim to hate
True colors are shining through
Trading the black for the yellow, green and blue
The sun was in my eyes
It came through the trees
Consumed all of my mind
It was all I could see
The sun was in my eyes
Something became of my life
I left all else behind
And starred into the light
When summer came
I was overcome
Pursuing the sun and its hot summer days
On the long road on the way to the grave
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The Sun was in My Eyes: Part Doom
The sun was in my eyes
It came through the trees
Consumed all of my mind
It was all I could see
The sun was in my eyes
Something became of my life
I left all else behind
And starred into the light
The sun was in my eyes
I could not see
Please find it in your heart
To forgive me
Pursuing the sun because you can
But still tell the night you’ll still see each other now and again
Let him down softly, be polite
Reassure him all the same that things will be like they’ve always have been
A fragile boy
With needs on you he depends
Who measures how much
It all meant to you by how quickly you left
A fragile boy
With needs on you he depends
With your negligence
You have pushed him to the edge
It was the darkness that kept us together...
...It was the light that led you away
You control our destiny
Reduce it back to an idea
I beg of you from agony
Please conform to decency
The sun was in my eyes
It came through the trees
Consumed all of my mind
It was all I could see
The sun was in my eyes
Something became of my life
I left all else behind
And starred into the light
The sun is shallow
It will shine for anyone
The night is loyal
Only to those who are true
Time will fly as you pursue the sun
But the night will be long and cold
And it will wait for you at home
When summer came
I was overcome
Something lost for something gained
Pursuing the sun and it’s hot summer days
On the long, backstabbing back-road on the way to the grave
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Allure Of The Earth
The sun taunts you
In everything you do
Like a substance that works for everyone else
But has no effect on you
It shines for places
You’ll never go
It shines for people
You’ll never know
You believe that in your entire life
You will never feel
What it’s like
So you turn away
Dream about an escape
A hole in the earth deep and cool
That you could climb down into
I despise the rising
Of the upsetting sun
I’ll hide away
Until the day is done
I’ll exclude myself
A few months of every year
To avoid the drama
Of the sun, sweat and tears
You could fall away
And no one would know
Release the tension of holding on
Feel the high of letting go
So you turn away
Elude the pressures of the sun
Go find your place in the shade
Far away from everyone
It’s so easy to get your fill
When the engine turns and pushes in the dirt
It’s so easy to be satisfied
When all you want to do is lay down and die
The Allure of the Earth
Those dreams can come true
When you make a deal with the earth
Who says...
"Here’s what I can do for you..."
The Allure of the Earth
When you are through with trying
When you are tired and days are long
Letting go seems so inviting
The Allure of the Earth
The desire to give up
It is the encouragement
When you are discouraged
The Allure of the Earth
When the urges aren’t worth fighting
The temptations on the great beyond
Become so exciting
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Shedding The Deadwood
It’s no wonder I’ve felt so tired
I’ve witnessed the careless all running past me
While I’ve been told to ignore my desires
And grow numb with understanding
I walk through theses woods
I carry this deadwood
I am determined to see this through
Driven only by the guilt and the shame of giving up
I must complete what I set out to do - For you
It stayed on a shelf made of my arms
They had grown strong from giving support
I knew that my arms could hold out forever
It was my mind that’d grow tired
And in time would let go
It’s been so long since I have questioned
What it is that I really want
Instead I follow your directions
As you lead me on
I can’t use it to build my home
It will not fulfill my desires
Some wood can be used to help build a life
This wood will be used for building a fire
Why carry this deadwood with me...
...when were I’m going there will be living trees
Now close enough to carry it all to the end
But throwing it all to the ground instead
This bundle of deadwood
The pieces they fall
Corners indent the soil and accumulate on one another
Tumble down and pile up
It awkwardly spills like myself at a time
Like the time it had killed
Like every moment after it was collected and held
I’d give up all that I started
To pursue all that I wanted
I may arrive empty handed
But at least I will arrive
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Dragged Across A Forest Floor
Another era has come to an end
You’ll return to where it began
Wandering at night on Ypres Rd.
To determine why you walk in the woods alone
A piece of out history I used to honour
They disrespected and disgraced
They took the ground upon which I walked
And rubbed it in my face
To me these woods are but a forest of metaphors
And nothing more
A path through the woods of my past
Where I was dragged across a forest floor
They breathe in the stagnant air
The poison sky shelters them from the sun
No exposure, nothing grows
No one ever wonders what lies beyond
So set in their old ways
They could only hope for change
Instead they flaunt their stubborn pride
Digging their own graves
To me these woods are but a forest of metaphors
And nothing more
A path through the woods of my past
Where I was dragged across a forest floor
I see the truth hidden between the trees
These tough woods are but delicate forest
Everyone for themselves in the hallowed name of unity
Finding comfort in their misery
They were doomed beyond the reach of help
Saved only by the unconditional love
Of hate for a place they couldn’t live without
All that I hoped to change
Would not be reversed by words alone
It would require all of their efforts
The lack of which was already set in stone
At a time when I could take no more
I was dragged across a forest floor
Sticks and stones
The combined discomfort of hundreds of pains
Thorns and Needles
I pull them out of my skin
While walking home
Accept the fact that they’ve missed your point
Conceal your motives and all your thoughts
Keep your opinions to yourself
Give them exactly what they want
There’s no hope for understanding
Our differences would not be solved
For my survival and my sanity
In time I learned to have tolerance for you all
Bite your tongue until it bleeds
Choke down the blood so no one sees
Fight the tears
Let them fall within
While you’re here
Never let your weakness show
These woods are full of hope
These woods are where I walk alone
Even at times
When standing still
Strength and speed
Still lie dormant within
You will see me channel the pain
As blood leaves my core and fills my veins
These woods are but a forest of metaphors
And nothing more
The tall trees above
They are the ones that exist
The fallen leaves are those that have fallen to my feet
The trails of broken branches
These are the mistakes you make
The seeds are the ones to be that I push in the earth
With every step I take
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Summer’s Envy
How dare you subject me
To Summer’s Envy
I will shine brighter than the day you left me
You will see traces of you in my revenge
Which is in everything I do
When summer comes
Your spotlight is the sun
You can do as you please
And get whatever you want
How dare you subject me
To Summer’s Envy
I will shine brighter than the day you left me
You will see traces of you as I avenge
Everything you put me through
In the daytime
When everyone can see
It makes you look so good
Being cruel to me
How dare you subject me
To Summer’s Envy
I will shine brighter than the day you left me
On that day you may have had my jealousy
But in time I will have yours and you will envy me
The summer sun may soothe your pain
As you escape to bathe in its rays
But you’ll still come home to drown in me
Or at least where I used to be
The things I’ve said
The sound of my laugh
My hopes and dreams
Where I lay with you
Your memories of me
How dare you subject me
To Summer’s Envy
I will shine brighter than the day you left me
One day I’ll be able to make my peace with you
But not until years of revenge come true
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The Ghosts Of Summer’s Past
There is a comfort in longing for
Something that’s gone forever
It shows how much that something meant to you
When it was here
To a person who claims
To never having had anything
They can be confronted by
The empty space where something once was
I could only remember feeling so bad
When the present time was passing by
Looking back now I realise
That the best and worst times in my life
Could coincide
My greatest achievement is also my greatest loss
The best thing I ever had is forever gone
It is a dark and fulfilling feeling of frustration
To reminisce and feel the opposite of anticipation
It is a talent of the soul
To discover the joys in pain
Thinking of moments you long for
Knowing you’ll never have them again
A moment of euphoria
Inspired by a photograph from that summer
I remember how we hated everything
And in that we managed to find comfort in each other
Those days are gone, my heart goes on
I long for the way it used to be
When summer comes it will return
That feeling will become again
It comes on strong and so fast
But you know that it won’t last
It’s just the hauntings of
The ghosts of summer’s past
And though they are far behind me
I can still hear them calling
As if they were right beside me
Tempting my comfort in longing
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Outro: The End Of August
On a county road
Under the purple sky
Fields of nothing
At our sides
The End of August
And into autumn
We stood at the edge
And watched the storm
The End of August
And into autumn
We prepare to get serious again
On a county road
Under the purple sky
Fields of nothing
At our sides
The End of August
And into autumn
We stood at the edge
And watched the storm
The End of August
And into autumn
A year from now I’ll be so far away
On a county road
Under the purple sky
Fields of nothing
At our sides
The End of August
And into autumn
We stood at the edge
And watched the storm